When there are no words, pictures tell the story of sweet joy, celebration and love that filled our 10 hours with Sophie as we grew to know and love her even more than we could have ever dreamed possible. Those 10 hours were filled with and surrounded by holy moments, that in the coming days I hope to put into words as we have a chance to process together all that God did that weekend. God truly brought to fruition the passage He led me to months ago as I thought and dreamed of Sophie’s arrival.
“Look among the nations and see; wonder and be astounded. For I am doing a work in your days that you would not believe if told.” – Habakkuk 1:5
We were filled with wonder and astounded by all the Lord did in the 4 days we were in the hospital. His presence filled that place in incredible ways. And though tears flood our eyes now, we love reflecting on the beautiful moments the Lord gave us with our firstborn daughter, Sophia Kyla Dennis.
For those who wonder whether it is truly worth it to carry a child to term who has little chance of survival outside of the womb, it is worth it beyond what words could say.
We are forever grateful to our Videographer, Scott Taylor and Photographer, Amanda Kern from Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep and my friend and photographer, Elyse South who documented every detail of Sophie’s precious life. These photos and video have captured the moments we will never forget.
Lindsey lives in Orlando, Florida where she currently works with a non-profit Christian organization investing her life in college students, helping them to know and walk with Jesus. She is married to Kevin, and the mother of 4 children, 2 who are now with Jesus and 2 who are in her arms today. She writes, teaches and speaks to others on what it looks like to walk with God in the midst of suffering, and how to trust Him with our lives.
these are wonderful. Thanks for modeling such courage and trust and always pointing towards God’s goodness and power. Praying for you guys.
I love you. I have been following Sophie’s story since last Spring and have shed many tears reading your story and praying for you and Kevin. I was so thankful that the Lord gave you time to spend with her before taking her Home. My heart grieves for both of you, though, and you will continue to be in my prayers. I pray that God’s presence will be a constant companion and that He would not feel far from you.
Thank you so much for sharing these pics!! What an amazing and beautiful life celebrated!
Lindsey and Kevin,
I am so sorry for your loss! She is beautiful and I am so grateful that you got so many hours with her. I miss you Lindsey and wish I could give you a hug right now. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I love you Lindsey.
Lindsey (and Kevin),
Wow! These are so beautiful and wonderful. I can hardly take the little precious toes and fingers and the sweet nose. So much goodness in one little bundle. I kept enlarging the pictures so I could get a better look at her sweetness! 🙂
I could type and retype a hundred times some kind of comment or remark that might make you feel better but I’m not going to pretend I know what that is. It is obvious you have God’s heart before you. And it is obvious He so loves the three of you dearly. When I don’t know much, this is truly enough. Grateful that He loves so lavishly.
I’m sure my faith isn’t the same today as it was 9 months ago.
I will remember your story for my lifetime.
She is perfect!
Gorgeous!! So glad you were blessed with such an amazing day with your girl!! Hugs and prayers for your hearts as you journey forward.
Kara – Karinne’s mommy – http://www.karinneclaire.blogspot.com
I am so glad you got to spend sometime with Sophie before she passed on. I came across your story through some friends who work at WDW, and I was really touched. Sending good thoughts your way <3
Lindsey- I am just in awe of these photos and of your journey and of the Lord… as a birth doula myself, the process- pregnancy, birth, all of it is just so very inspiring and I’m proud to know you. So much love. Thank you for sharing this.
These are breathtaking. What a beautiful family you are! And what pretty lips and sweet little hands! I can’t help but weep as I look through these pictures and thank God for the way you were able to love and celebrate Sophie during her 10 precious hours in your arms. She is such a gift, a blessing beyond measure. What a high calling God has on your lives to be Sophie’s parents. I am in awe at all He has done through Sophia’s life…and we only see a glimpse of it! I love you and continue to pray that God would tenderly shepherd your hearts as you journey with Him through this deep grief.
Kevin and Lindsey, I am in awe of God as I look at these pictures and see the joy on your faces as well as the beautiful, sweet face of your little Sophia. I am so thankful for how you have let Him display His glory through your lovely family. I am grieving and rejoicing with you…and praying for you as you walk this road of missing your precious child. Thank you for sharing your heart and your photos.
Thank you for letting us follow your story. I don’t know you, but I have been reading your blogs. Your sweet Sophie has given God so much glory. Thank you for your example of faith and complete, abandoned trust in God. Hugs from your sister in Christ in Oklahoma.
I just stumbled upon your blog from another friend’s post on facebook, so I’ve only been able to follow it for the past few weeks. I’ve been waiting and checking for new updates daily, and thinking of you and your family and praying often throughout the day, whenever the Lord wonderfully places you on my heart. My heart aches for you as you grieve, as we grieve. But oh, those pictures!!! Thank you so much for posting:) She’s beautiful, and I know people say that, but that face! Those lips, those hands, those feet!!! I’ve been praising God that he placed Sophie in your care. To think those moments may have never been possible if someone else had chosen a different path. God certainly knows what He is doing and gave her to the perfect parents, ones who guarded her and protected her life and allowed her to have a story. I will continue to pray for God’s powerful healing touch to be with you and carry you through the roller coaster of emotions. I imagine it’s not a grieving “process,” but that she will be grieved until we see her in heaven. Thank you for your story, your faithfulness, and for allowing God to be glorified in such a beautiful and sweet little lady’s story. And for allowing all of us to connect with you and with Sophie too. My heart, thoughts, and prayers are with you and your family. I hope you can “feel” my huge hug from afar. Much love, Michelle
So beautiful and full of honor. prayers.
Your story, and the pictures you have shared also are truly inspiring!….a testament to walking by faith, and I hope an inspiration to other parents who may be experiencing something similar.
Beautiful, breathtaking, and purely of the Lord. Prayers continue to be lifted up for you!!!
I have been so blessed as you have shared Sophia Kyla with us these last few months. The two of you have not only honored God with your decision to carry Sophia Kyla to term, you have also honored your daughter. You choose to give her every moment of life you could. You received her as a blessing and you allowed her to be a blessing. She has touched more lives than you will ever know until eternity. May our great and loving God surround each of you and each member of your family who have loved this sweet child with His Presence and His Peace.
Your story has been such a blessing to me. I can’t imagine the courage and strength you posess. This blog has been so inspiring and beautiful. I will never know the emotions you feel now, but your story has brought me such joy and also so many tears. I have thought about your precious family of three daily since finding your blog, and I am so glad you had such support and love surrounding you during this time. Your faith and strength are incredible and have touched my life. Thank you for telling your story and for believing and trusting and loving your sweet Sophie. I will continue to think about your family and pray for you as you move forward.
Dear Lindsey and Kevin,
Some are able to use words to bring comfort…some know just what to say.
Others struggle to even be coherent…while some of us can only cry out to The Lord, without words. He knows what we are trying to pray for you…even when the words won’t come.
I would like to echo what one person said…”I will remember your story for my lifetime.” …and never be the same again.
To God be the glory…great things he hath done.
Lindsey and Kevin,
Your story has been crafted with such love and compassion as you chose to carry Sophie to term. Faithful and full of faith. I so appreciate your willingness to share your journey; even more, your willingness to be vulnerable to what this journey cost you. Sophie is not only beautiful, she’s a gift of incredible worth. My prayers are with you all.
In His love, Dayle
I have seen what special parents and a special child can do. My friend had a pregnancy that the doctor’s recommended terminating. K was not expected to survive the birth. 3 1/2 years later, the line at her visitation was out the door. Not many 3 yr old babies touch that many lives. I wholeheartedly agree with you. The work God can do is beyond anything we could ever imagine. EVER imagine. Prayers, hugs, and tears with/for you and your family. Sophie is a beautiful little angel who touched many before going home after her visit.
Sophia Kyla is so gorgeous and breathtakingly precious! I am so very happy that you had 10 amazing hours with your sweet baby girl. These pictures are wonderful and so special; you will treasure them always and I am very glad that you had such great people there to capture Sophie’s life.
Following your family’s story these past few months has been both inspiring and challenging for me. I have been in awe of your faith, especially as I’ve had some dark days, and I have continually been challenged to examine my outlook on life and the view that I have of the Lord. He is good, though there are times that I don’t understand and struggle to see that, I know in my heart that it is true.
A few months ago you were following the story of my little family and as your heart grieved with mine when my precious Isaac went to be with the Lord, my heart grieves with you now. I pray for you and Kevin constantly, and I hope that this journey you are on continues to bring you closer together and closer to the Lord. As I told you when Adam and I were in Florida, there are good days and there are hard days, and some days are a mix of both, but you can and will keep going. The pain will never go away, but it does change. The memories and stories, the photos, the videos, the books and toys and blankets; everything Sophia Kyla Dennis will have a place in that pain, but there will also be smiles and joy as you remember her and continue to love your adorable daughter, and that is beautiful.
I’ll be praying for you and Kevin, and if there is anything I can do, please let me know. Granted, that’s kind of a dumb thing to say because I know from experience that there isn’t much that anyone can do, but if there is anything, let me know.
I started following your blog when a friend from our life group (Sara Griswold) asked us to pray for you all. I am without the proper words to describe how you have touched my heart. Your story, your strength, your faith, your writing, your love … it is amazing, miraculous, and beautiful. I pray for you, and when I do, I also ask God to strengthen my faith that it would be as yours.
Thank you, thank you for sharing your love story. May Hod continue to bless you.
I can’t think of the right words to describe the difference that this story has made on my life. I don’t know either of you, I just passed by this blog on a facebook page and decided to take a look. The strength of your faith is unbelievable. Ive read all of the posts, and from the beginning how you had no doubt in your mind that you would carry her…it is just breathtaking. I can not relate to your story at all, I am only 20, i’m in college, and I am no where close to becoming a mother. But my heart aches for you. I can’t imagine how you must feel, and the decision to carry her, how that has changed your life…and mine. I’ve been lost, traveling to places around the world looking for hope, for something to believe in, a purpose. I have found it. I don’t know much about faith in God, but I can see that through your faith you were able to do amazing things. I want to do amazing things too! I want to be able to have the courage to do what you have done, and the faith to help me do it. Your God is astounding, and I want to be a part of that. Thank You for sharing your story and changing my life, and I am sure many others.
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Sophie’s story and the courage of her devoted parents has been inspirational and a tremendous blessing to my family. We pray for them daily and strive to seek The Lord as they do. Lindsey’s blog is wonderful testament and memorial to such a brave, beautiful Child of God.
Lindsey, thank you for sharing your journey with us so openly and honestly and letting us share in your joy and grief. You have reminded all of us how, in the midst of our broken world, we will see God show up in sweet and miraculous ways…
Lindsey and Kevin,
The tears are flowing as I see these beautiful pictures with your precious daughter. What a gift =) I am praying for you and thankful for your faith and the precious gift of allowing us to see these pictures and a glimpse of the 10 hours spent with your beautiful Sophie. I know the Lord is carrying you through the pain and grief… thanks for letting us be a part.
Lindsey & Kevin ….you do not know me but my daughter is Katie Sullivan and she is Kyle Hedberg’s fiance (Colorado) as you know. They have shared these beautiful photos of your baby Sophie’s journey into your lives. I have never felt such emotion in viewing these pictures. At first I was smiling and overjoyed at the beauty of you and your baby and the moments being shared with family & friends. By the end I was in tears because knowing the outcome, even though it was a celebration of her life too, I felt so incredibly blessed and felt Jesus come into my heart and say be thankful and do not take for granted those around you. I just want to say thank you for sharing a piece of your life with others and for making me realize how blessed our family truely is to have healthy, caring, thoughtful, intelligient, loving, & faithful children in our lives. Our children are 27,22, and 18 and I already knew how special they already are….but this just reinforced my faith, hope, and love for each of them and their lives. I also want to convey our sadness for your loss. Please know that others are sharing this time with you and hoping that with time your sorrow will grow into a new kind of happiness and hopefully a renewed spirit. God bless you all. Sincerely, Michele Sullivan
What a beautiful precious gift that you all celebrated in a beautiful way. I couldn’t stop the tears from flowing…. they weren’t all tears of sadness though, they were tears of soaking in her beauty. I continue to pray for you and your family in the coming days, months and years.
Lindsey, Kevin and Sophie,
God bless you for your courage, love and heart for The Lord that shines through your story and touches hearts of all who pray with and for you. I am so very thankful that The Lord blessed you with time together as Sophie met you and sweetly cried hello…to be able to be with your child as The Lord calls her into being and begins her journey…to welcoming her into your arms at birth to the hardest but biggest part so Sophie’s story, her path from your arms to our Saviors is not something others go through…it is difficult and blessed…a mix of emotions as you ache for her but know she is fully restored and resting in His arms. I have been so touched by you and your families journey as I related to some of it myself with my sweet babies in Heaven…I have been so in love with little Sophie through your hearts of sharing that our families prayers have made her a part of our hearts and a treasure of the legacy she will always have planted in the lives of all who love The Lord and cherished your precious baby girl, and you. I thank you for your tender sharing…these photos of treasured compassion, the hearts and soft eyes as you all look with wonder on such a beautifully lived little lamb of God…needs no words…treasured moments, cherished bonds, deep faith and pure love will always reflect celebrating Sophie…one of Gods most precious creations in Heaven. God bless you as Gloryland parents, and know that we are praying as you continue your journey in the time ahead….you are all in our hearts, thought and prayers.
Love In Christ,
just so much beauty. thanking God for each moment you spent with your sweet girl.
We keep praying for you guys, that God would surround you with His love and grace through this time, along with the hope that you will one day see Sophie again in all her God-given glory!
Ryan, Albina, and Caleb
These are not just pictures…..they tell a beautiful story. A story of unconditional love for a child who is very much wanted and accepted for the person God created her to be. Why?? We can not answer that question, but who knows how many hearts will ultimately be touched by your precious Sophie and the faith and trust in God that brought you through a most difficult challenge. Who knows how many will be brought to the savior by you, your husband and family’s testimony about a God who loves us unconditionally. To witness the love and support of family and friends during a joyful event and the uncertainty that lay ahead. I pray for you and your family, that you will know the comfort of Gods arms and your Savior walking with you through each teardrop as you miss your darling Sophie. God gave up His darling Son for us when we were not even worthy of His sacrifice. That is Grace Love. I pray for you my precious sister!
What an amazing footprint those little darling feet have left in this world!!!
I don’t know you but have cried my way through this honoring tribute to your baby girl. How loved she is by so many! The tender love and courage it took to celebrate and document the short life of this precious little one primarily honors the One who has given you such faith and endurance during a trial I can’t imagine facing. Thank you for sharing your story and for reminding me that God is good through everything, and that He sustains His children when the mess and pain of our broken world invades our lives. I know the good He will bring out of this tragedy has only just begun and I pray that the dark days to come will be full of His comforting presence for each of you.
Lindsey….thank you so much for sharing your journey….only when we reach heaven will you know how many lives your family has touched.
Colleen “Williams” Pope
I am so happy that you were able to see Sophia breathe and move and cry! Our 2 little anencephaly angels were not able to move because they were working so hard to keep their little hearts beating for our precious 44 and 99 minutes. God blessed you with 10 wonderful hours! What a miracle! Thank you for sharing your beautiful little girl.
amazing. what a sweet sweet gift from the Lord. You guys are such a beautiful picture of trusting Jesus and resting in His goodness.
Thank you, and thank you again for sharing your story. We usually look at life as through the wrong end of a telescope, making people and events smaller than they really are. But you have magnified and celebrated tiny Sophie, so that we get a glimpse of the Father’s eternal love for all of us.
Incredible family album – giving us moments with your precious Sophi and her family. Her experience with her savior is all that overshadows the love she had to feel from her parents and surrounding family. Our God is glorified before all through you. With much love , Craig & Carol ( We will not forget to pray in these weeks ahead)
Wow, I saw your blog through a friend on Facebook so I don’t know your story, but you can count on my prayers during this difficult time. I cried looking at all your precious photos that you will be so glad you have. We lost our baby girl 7 years ago this November to Anencephaly. We had Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep take photos and I am forever grateful to them for the wonderful memories that they captured. Please know I’m praying for you.
Thank you for sharing Sophies beautiful life with us. Im so sorry for your loss. after seeing those pics its hard to feel pitty, I mean that because I have never seen so much love and joy photographed. God gave you all an amazing gift. Many blessings to you and yours. ♡
I may never know you except through this blog, but I love you and will never forget your testimony.
Mary Beth Branson
Thank you for sharing the privilege to pray for this opportunity with Sophie and Lindsey and Kevin……I have a friend whose grandson only lived 24 hrs because he only had part of his heart and another child who was born with his heart in his back, but is living today….so Brock, the one who went to Jesus after 24 hours was there to welcome your Sophie……I continue to pray for your time of grief and celebration as well…….love, mb
Oh, Lindsey and Kevin, I expected to just cry when I opened the blog and saw there were pictures. But, that wasn’t the case. My heart was so full of the sweetness of Jesus reflected in those pictures. I can’t begin to imagine your loss and am praying that Jesus will continue to be BRIGHT and AMAZING as He holds you in His arms. Thank you, thank you, thank you for letting His love story exude through all of this! What an amazing gift Sophie IS to all who have heard her story.
I have been praying for your family for a while now. What strength you have shown in making the decision to meet Sophie and celebrate her while she was here! I am so happy you got time with her. If you are interested and when you are ready, you might want to consider sharing your story with stillbirthday.com. It is an amazing resource that helps families celebrate their angel babies, and I know that there would be families that would be touched and inspired by your story!
Thank you Kevin and Lindsey to introducing us to Sophie! She is beautiful just like her momma! We are grateful for the many blessings and provisions God had for her arrival. And we also mourn with you for your loss. We rejoice that she is with Our Savior! May the God of all hope fill you and give you comfort and joy as only He can. Much love from Ohio!
Thank you Lindsey. Praying for you.
My husband and I prayed with your family after a service at Mosiac in Oakland. I began following your story after that morning in June. I started at your 1st post and read each one. I have prayed for you many times and shed tears as I read your transparent posts. I have also been in awe and wonder at how Our Father has covered you with so many amazing people to walk with you in this journey. We truly serve an awesome God. Thank you for sharing your beautiful photos of your 10 precious hours with Sophie. I pray that He comforts you as only He knows how. In His Love, Pamela Forsyth.
Thank you so much for sharing Your precious angel with us! Thank you for sharing those special 10 hours!!!
Oh, Lindsey and Kevin!!! I have been looking forward to more posts. I am amazed and humbled all over again looking at these!!!!
I am amazed at your courage and your generosity by letting so many friends and family not only meet Sophie, but hold her too. What a gift you gave to so many, who’s hearts ache deeply. It would have been understandable if you never wanted to let her out of your arms, but in these precious 10 hours you gave joy to so many people. Along with you, they will not forget the softness of her skin, or the coo of her breath, and in this season of deep grief, I hope it will be a comfort to know that these people remember her fondly too….every glorious inch of her.
Kevin and Laurie, What courage it takes to share some of the most intimate, vulnerable, precious, joy filled, heartbreaking, and personal moments of your life with the world. Eternity will only reveal all the ways Sophie has touched so many lives. God bless you and hold you close. Toni Fleischmann
Lindsey and Kevin-Thank you so much for sharing these precious pictures and moments! You are an amazing, living testimony to the grace and power that is available to all through Jesus Christ. We are all blessed to share in your journey. May God bless you and comfort you through the days ahead. Love you!
The Bull family
She is beautiful! Those cheeks! Those arms!
These pictures are amazing!! It gives me much joy to follow your story. My husband and I are expecting our second child in December. We found out six weeks ago that our daughter has anecephaly too. This has been the hardest thing we have ever had to face. Every day is filled different emotions. I just want to say thank you for sharing your story! Reading your posts have helped us in ways we thought weren’t possible. May God continue to give both of our families peace and comfort.
Dear Kevin, Lindsey and Sophie, you make a beautiful family. I know it was a brief time together, but oh! the beauty. Thank you for sharing Sophie with me and so many others. I know the time you had with her was precious beyond words. And her time with you will mean the same to her. I am praising Jesus that she is with him now and one day you will be with her again. God Bless you, Ronda Wilson in Boring Oregon
Thank you for sharing these photos. What a beautiful time you spent with your daughter. God is enjoying spending time in heaven with Sophie in his arms right now. He loves her more than we could ever imagine.
I have been immensely blessed by your experience and courage. Your daughter is beautiful and so are both of you. Though your grief is surely great, may the Lord increase your joy and peace a hundredfold. You have been faithful. Sophie passed beyond the confines of this earth knowing and feeling that she was deeply loved. I look forward to meeting all three of you at the glorious throne of Christ Jesus our Lord. To Him be the glory forever and ever.
She is beautiful!
That was too beautiful to ever forget. God was so evident in your story of Sophie’s birth. Thank you for sharing everything you did with us all. We’ll continue to pray.
Thank you for the beautiful experience of sharing God as Sophie was born. You have affirmed birth in the best way.
My desk is covered in tears. We serve an amazing God. I am in awe of the beauty of Sophie’s tiny form and the overwhelming joy lived in just ten hours. God has certainly used Sophie’s story to reach others through your faith… now may He bless you and your husband with comfort, peace that passes understanding, and joy beyond measure in the coming years.
I am SO glad I wandered onto this blog today. 🙂
This is amazing. We lost our daughter Raine Madilynne as she was full-term stillborn. We went to the hospital and they sent us home as I was not quite in labor. I went into labor that evening and when we arrived at the hospital there was no heartbeat. A friend forwarded your blog to me. What an amazing journey and what great parents you are. Sophie is gorgeous and I feel blessed knowing about her life and her journey. Much love to your family.
hi I’m grace its almost two years now that I lost my baby through anencephalic birth, I was so touch by your story of how blessed you are to have time to be with her. me I never had a chance to touch or even embraced him I was on a normal labor/delivery when my doc said the shoulder is not coming out and they told me they have to do emergency c.s even before I was asking for a c.s so that even for a minute or second we could be with him but it didn’t happened that way. until now I’m still greaving deeply my regrets of not been able to hold my sweet little angel. he was born/died June 22, 20012 the day after my eldest sons b-day.
I’m so sorry you did not get to hold your sweet baby and that you had such a difficult delivery. Thank you for sharing this and I’m praying for you right now that God would continue to redeem and restore the great loss and pain you’ve experience! Please feel free to email me if you want to talk more! (If you click on the “about me” link there is a button to email me!)
Lindsay and Kevin, what faith, courage, love and dedication! I cried when I read the about your journey and looked at your pictures! What a beautiful little angel Sophia is!
Such beautiful photos. I am so sorry for your loss. As I look at each photo, the tears keep coming, reminded so freshly of our similar day back in December. So many of your photos remind me so much of so many of the photos we had during our six hours with our little girl, Anysia. They are heartbreakingly beautiful. I hope it’s okay that I comment here, even though I don’t know you. I saw your video on the Orlando ABC news web site, and someone who commented there had a link to your blog, so I stopped over. I only comment because I know that I always welcome the comments when others come to my blog and leave their thoughts… even if I don’t know them… it is always a blessing. So I hope you will feel the same. Again, I am so sorry for your loss. I’m so comforted to see the story of others who have walked such a similar road, but it is painful each time as well. May you continue to feel God’s presence in your life and walk closely with him, finding comfort and joy more each day that goes on. Your baby girl is beautiful. And I love the name of your blog. How like a vapor life can seem.
Dear Lindsey and Kevin, Sophie is beautiful! These pictures are a blessing, and I know that the 9 months and 10 hours that you shared with her were beyond words. I am so proud of you both with your decision to keep her and love her until her full term. I am so touched – in fact my desk is covered with tears! Sophie was worth every bit of the celebration of her life. I also lost a baby “Butterfly” due to a miscarriage back in April 2012. Even though my husband and I have a precious baby daughter now, I know that each individual life is worth cherishing and cannot be replaced. No matter how young or small a person is, God has a purpose! Romans 8:28 is Butterfly’s verse. Perhaps our babies are playing together in heaven :’) I pray that God offers you comfort, peace, and hope during every day that you feel longing to see Sophie again. I actually was listening to an audio book called “Summer” by Karen Kingsbury in which one of the characters has a baby daughter diagnosed with anencephaly. The story brought me to tears, and by looking more into the condition, I found your site. It is obvious that you are a blessing and encouragement to others. I am so sorry for your loss and so happy for the time you shared with Sophie.
I somehow stumbled on your story through Facebook and my eyes are brimming with tears as I just finished reading this while rocking my 5 month old to sleep. What a beautiful celebration of a beautiful life! Thank you for sharing Sophie with us.